Humilty.

Greetings everyone!

This blog is for this upcoming summer, to keep you posted on my Internship. If you didn't know already, I will be teaching English to women and working amongst a Muslim culture in the Midwest. The area I will be in is the most populated Muslim area in the United States. Due to security reasons, I am not allowed to state where this is. There are over 400, 000 Muslims living in this area! I will begin my internship June 8th and end on July 31. My classes are four days a week, three and a half hours a day. I am working with the Navigators, and am currently working on support raising. I need to raise $1800 by May 15, and I am currently at $575. I would love your prayers and support in this! I am very excited for this opportunity, and I know this will be challenging, but I look forward to growing and learning. My biggest prayer requests are raising funds and preparing my heart to love this women. I feel very inadequate to be doing this, but God has called me and I know He has much to teach me! I desire to be a learner and a witness. I trust in the words of Psalm 37:6 "Delight yourself in the Lord; trust in Him and He will act. He will bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday" My desire is to be humbled, learn to love the people I am teaching, and for souls to be won to Christ.

A quick update on my current spiritual life: I will be honest on here. I am far from perfect, a sinner saved by God's grace. I know it is only God's grace that saved and redeemed me. Recently, I have been praying daily for humility. I am wondering if there is a stopping point for that? I want to become like Christ, and honestly, humility starting to hurt. Physically, I feel like I am falling apart. broken finger, strained leg muscle, multiple food intolerance possibly leading to a chronic illness. Having to ask for help, and knowing that God is glorified in this? This is hard to take in. This is not at all what I asked for. I did not expect humility to look like this. I have to have help going to the grocery store, learning that I was wrong about alot of things and being corrected on those things..humility is more than just "doing things behind the scenes". If you want to read more on humility, John Piper has a great post on humility :http://www.desiringgod.org/ResourceLibrary/TasteAndSee/ByDate/1999/1140_What_Is_Humility/. I also highly recommend C.J Mahaney's book "True Humility" its in my top ten. Of course, Philippians 2 gives us the perfect example of Christ's humility. I would love to expound on that, but to sum it up, Christ calls us to be humbled before Him. He was the ultimate servant.

Humility is oh so hard. I want it to stop, yet everyday my heart is pressed to pray for it. I will be honest, I am scared. However, to trust and know that God is good in all His doings, I should not fear. I truly want to be a humble servant. One who will endure whatever it takes for the sake of Christ and the gospel. Yes. That is the desire of my heart.